29.

So, it’s my birthday (well, at least for the next 23 minutes) which means it’s exactly one year today since we noticed Isla coming down with what we now know to be Type 1 Juvenile Diabetes. A moment of sad. 

And a week ago tomorrow our lives changed even more when we found out my brother’s fiancee had suddenly + tragically passed in her sleep at the age of 25. I still don’t have the words to describe the loss we feel. A lot of moments of sad squared.

No, sad infinity. 

Yesterday at her funeral service I urged Isla to thank the “nice man” with the name tag Mauricio for all his help. I was unnecessarily relentless about thanking “the nice man.” But now there’s question whether or not Mauricio (super short hair, zero visible boobage) was indeed a man + I feel absolutely awful that I may have hurt this person’s feelings.

It’s all I can think about. And I know it’s misplaced emotion + misdirected energy. And I know Mauricio is a boy’s name (please tell me it’s universally a boy’s name!). But it’s nearly midnight, I’m on my third cup of milky tea, the house is still, I have three newborn albums for work on the go + all I can fret about is whether I harmed someone’s self esteem so genuinely unintentionally. 

Clearly, I’m where the party’s at. Woot woot, 29. Here we go. OY!!!!

26 January 29

Notes

  1. mamaguru said: I hope your world tilts and you have a lot of happiness in this upcoming year to correct the imbalance. Happy Birthday.
  2. ilovebean said: Mauricio, as far as I know, is a man’s name, don’t fret. If you made a mistake, I’m sure you were not the first. I am so sorry to hear about your brother’s fiance. As far as Isla, it’s been one year of her surviving like a champion! Happy birthday!
  3. thekidhasarrived said: That’s a lot of emotion to handle in one week. I hope that your future birthdays have only happiness in them, and I wish the best to your family in getting through this tough time. Hugs, mama. (And Mauricio is a boy’s name, absolutely.)
  4. georgiegirlnyc said: Oh no, that is awful (the part about your brother’s fiance, I mean). Hopefully this year brings a lot more joy to your family.
  5. viewfrom216 said: That is so tragic. I’m so sorry for your family’s loss. Happy Birthday none the less.
  6. nosmokewithoutpryor said: you’re too nice for your own good :) stop worrying about Mauricio, i’m sure Mauricio is fine.. and i cannot believe that about
  7. withperspective said: Oh my so many different emotions tied to this post. Wishing you a happy 29, sending you, your brother & family lots of love and continuing to send Isla lots of healthy thoughts. xo
  8. eddieni said: :(
  9. kaumealani said: It feels weird to say I’m sorry for your loss and Happy Birthday in the same breath, but life is like that sometimes. Congrats on a year of managing Juvenile Diabetes with grace. It is a joy to read your posts.
  10. pleaseexcusethemess said: Oh man, T. My heart is with you guys. I’m so sorry for your loss.
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My name is Tamara and I'm the proud mama to one Isla James, my soft haired, bright eyed, inquisitive toddler who also happens to be a recently diagnosed T1 Juvenile Diabetic. As you can tell, I'm pretty smitten with this addition to our family, and tend to share it all — her health + wellness management, her growth + change, things we love + do — here. I'm also a professional newborn + day-in-the-life documentary photographer (Eh! Good Looking | Children's Photography Boutique) or (Whim + Whistle Archival Co.) and a former magazine editor and (still sometimes) writer. You can win my heart always with a dozen salmon roses — sushi or just salmon pink petals. And if you find something funny, share it. I love a good laugh.


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